This is something that i struggled with for a while as to how could I see the Beloved in the Mother or bring before Her all my different parts for the needed change and transformation. Soon I realised that it was the limitation of my mind and its conception that put things in a certain slot. Sri Aurobindo is beyond man and woman and one would love to give one’s all to Him. Similarly the Mother is indeed the Beloved because with Her and Her alone one can share unabashedly all of oneself in utter nudity as a child.
But there are in us certain parts, typically engaged in a man-woman relationship which cannot be fully consummated thus. Perhaps these need to go through and grow through the human experience for the total change. At least this is what one finds hinted in some of the later writings of Sri Aurobindo on the Supramental Manifestation and in one of Nolini da’s writings ‘To love man’.
Affectionately,
Alok Da
