However, when my dearest loved ones say mean things or hurtful things it deeply deeply hurts me and often makes me cry. It is like a very deep pain that isn’t explicable. The trouble is, when I feel more calm and they more calm, I go and talk to them about it and they just reply with “well I didn’t mean it, I was just angry”. But the hurt of their words cannot be revoked. It almost stays as scars on my heart.
I don’t wish to keep grabbing their collar and asking how dare you say that because that hurts me as well as them. So, I just swallow it, and continue – but this hurt is still there like thorns when my heart is moved by love. How do I get rid of this practically ?
It is a sign that you are inwardly quite developed. With this inner development, some people, develop a suprasensitive nervous system. What is needed is to go past this stage by practising inner detachment and a certain wideness and impersonality within by referring all you do to the Divine Mother. In addition call for calm, peace, equanimity and do some exercises to strengthen the nervous system such as asanas and anulom viloma. Over a period of time this sensitivity is diminished as one understands the imperfect nature of our present life and how each human being is limited by his own nature. Expect nothing from the world, however close people may be. Turn all expectations towards the Divine and you will feel emotionally strong and protected.
Affectionately,
Alok Da
