I am staying in the ashram. But when I go to my house, I feel uncomfortable. I feel like it’s a prison life😬. What is the reason?

It is a feeling shared by all who have a developed psychic sensitivity. The Mother has spoken of the inner atmosphere of the Ashram, a luminous atmosphere full of inner peace, joy and the thrust for progress. This is due to the tapasya of Sri Aurobindo and the Mother and the divine vibrations that permeate the Ashram atmosphere. Those who are inwardly sensitive feel it and once this is tasted, the world outside seems a darkness full of artificial lights. However, one has to gradually learn to build something of this atmosphere while living outside through the practice of the Yoga. Here is what the Mother herself described.

‘Here, in Pondicherry, you cannot breathe without breathing my consciousness. It permeates the atmosphere in the subtle physical almost materially and extends right to the lake, seven miles away from here. Beyond, my consciousness can be felt in the material vital, and then on the mental and the other higher planes everywhere. When I came here for the first time, I felt Sri Aurobindo’s atmosphere, felt it materially, ten miles from the shore—ten nautical miles, not kilometers! It was very sudden, very concrete, a pure and luminous atmosphere, light, so light that it lifts you up.

A long time ago, Sri Aurobindo had this reminder, with which you are all quite familiar, put up everywhere in the Ashram: ‘Always behave as if the Mother was looking at you; because she is, indeed, always present.’

This is not some mere sentence, these are not just words, it is a fact. I am very concretely with you, and those with a subtle vision can see me.

Generally speaking, my Force is constantly here at work, constantly changing the psychological elements of your being to put them into new relationships and to make clear to you the diverse facets of your nature so that you may see what must be changed, developed or eliminated.

But besides all this, there is a special personal bond of affection between you and me, between all who have turned towards Sri Aurobindo’s teaching and me—and of course, distance does not count; you may be in France, at the other end of the world, or in Pondicherry, but this bond remains just as real and as living. Each time there is a call, each time I need to know something to send out a force, an inspiration, a protection or whatever else, a sort of message suddenly comes to me, and I do what is needed. Obviously, these communications come to me at any moment whatsoever, and you may have seen me more than once suddenly stop in the middle of a sentence or some work: it means something, some communication is coming, so I concentrate.’

Affectionately

Alok da 

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