Dada, it is a very painful stage for me. The outer nature creates a disturbance of being. When I think about the Divine, the outer consciousness goes its own way, and so, a severe pain is felt in the lower part, which binds the consciousness, but when I don’t think about the Divine and engage with work, then this does not happen. What should I do?
It happens to everybody. Being impatient doesn’t help. There are many parts of our nature, tendencies that we carry from lives, there are many elements of nature that are still developing and need to go through their own pace and process of evolution. All this takes time. Even a yoga of escape from earthly life is not easy. Here, the demand is for transformation through a conscious and concentrated evolution, not only of the soul, but of all the different parts of our nature. Hence, time is required. One has to keep on aspiring and surrendering, detecting all that needs to change and opening these parts to Her Light and Love.
It is a good sign that you feel pained when certain parts of nature go their own way and do not listen to the higher parts. Your feeling this psychic sadness is a sign that your soul is developing. Gradually, it will be able to put sufficient pressure upon these parts for them to change. Do not worry. Keep practicing the yoga steadily with faith in the Divine Mother, and She will pull you out of every inner and outer difficulty.
Affectionately,
Alok Da
