I enjoy being honest and straightforward but in a grounded way. I am totally undramatic. . I don’t like being around very loud, bombastic behaviors. I am being confused, because at times people read some leadership books, some ideas and they want to bring it into work, which totally imbalances the way of working for me. Whatever can be done organically gets distributed by over-planning and too much eagerness. I don’t understand why we need to copy or borrow some ideas from others, when they can arise in ourselves if we are dedicated to doing the work But, I am the only one to be subtly affected by it, most people chirp around and go on. I feel that my life is not mentally organized (where I plan and do it) but from a different place within, where it either resonates for me to do it or not. I am more free in my action, don’t have many preferences, but I just insist on doing the work quietly, neatly without over planning, even though all the details are eventually taken care of and done correctly. It is just that the manifestation of it is quite different.
How can I understand my swadharma from my personality, are they related? Can our svabhava and swadharma change during the course of our life?
You are ahead of your times or rather while the people are running on the old beaten tracks that lead us nowhere except in unending circles you have opted for the new lane, the road less travelled or the path less taken. Your thoughts, inwardness, attitudes and aims all point towards the readiness for the true spiritual life. To seek the Divine and manifest His Will in all you speak or do is your only dharma now.
Affectionately,
Alok Da