Fear and anxiety are of course the worst counselors. One has to make oneself quiet, as quiet as possible before we can truly decide. Mind and reason too often give inconclusive answers, partly because the mind has no certain way of knowing the future which we almost want to control. Secondly, the human mind can justify almost anything and everything. Preferences, desires, ambitions, ego all are experts in the craft of deception. It is best therefore to see things correctly, as they are, rather than justify one way or the other. Seeing this correctly is possible only if we are not burdened by the idea of right and wrong. The mind then almost invariably covers up what it considers as wrong and presents a nice acceptable justification for it. We have to see things as movements of Nature and then see what will help us align and grow closer to the Mother and the goal before us and what comes in the way. Thus the choice becomes simpler and easier. However, even when we are able to discern this, we may not yet be able to do it. In that case too one should offer the movements to the Mother. And finally, whatever be the course taken, we should surrender the result entirely in Her hands.
Affectionately,
Alok Da
