Home » Life Problems And Psychological Difficulties » Alok da , I am always confused and indecisive🫣.. this led me to always having big dreams and achieving nothing nor effectively studying since I was 12 and I’m close to 30. I give up like anything. Either I don’t like this or that about this job or that job or this exam or that exam or I’m scared of job profile as a girl or it’s in my state and I want to explore and it’s the same in all aspects of my life. And I never give 100% effort. I feel like I will end up a loser if this keeps going and after all this thinking I again end up watching random web series. The only good thing in life is the 10-20 minutes I spend talking to image of Ma and Aurobindo in the book. But by making mistakes which I know are mistakes, Isn’t that just pushing me more into darkness? Am I rushing or hurrying too much? It’s like I’m sinking deeper and deeper into the abyss of old habits and I don’t know where and what to conquer and stick to it. I’ve watched everything all cures but do nothing for long. Then a thought comes why am I worrying about all this when it’s all god’s plan and then again fall into the cycle in a day or two. I don’t understand anything. You’ll guide me and I’ll not even follow that for more than three days. Can I possibly do anything to grow and rise to a balanced living?
I have a simple suggestions for you.
Sit quietly for 10 min everyday and think about the purpose of your life.
Play some games and engage in regular exercises.
Call the Mother’s Name, Ma, as often as you can and dedicate everything you do to Her.
Let me know after two months how are you doing.
Affectioneatly,
Alok Da
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These dreams and visions belong to the intermediate vital worlds. It is a world that imitates Truth and misleads the soul through aggrandizing the ego and stimulating ambitions and desires. It is good that you defeated their designs and remembered The Mother and Sri Aurobindo.
The sadhana once begun never really stops. Yes one encounters temporary halts, – almost everyone goes through these phases, but that is because we need to assimilate the gains of the sadhana. Often our outer nature may not even recognise. Yet one has received something but more is not coming in either because the container is small …
Call The Mother, take Her Name and keep offering all your pain and dilemmas to Her. Surrender yourself to Her with faith and trust in Her.
Yes you should speak to your ex-husband unless and until he takes a clear decision regarding bringing up the child jointly together….