Home Ā» Life Problems And Psychological Difficulties Ā» Alok da , I am always confused and indecisiveš«£.. this led me to always having big dreams and achieving nothing nor effectively studying since I was 12 and I’m close to 30. I give up like anything. Either I don’t like this or that about this job or that job or this exam or that exam or I’m scared of job profile as a girl or it’s in my state and I want to explore and it’s the same in all aspects of my life. And I never give 100% effort. I feel like I will end up a loser if this keeps going and after all this thinking I again end up watching random web series. The only good thing in life is the 10-20 minutes I spend talking to image of Ma and Aurobindo in the book. But by making mistakes which I know are mistakes, Isn’t that just pushing me more into darkness? Am I rushing or hurrying too much? It’s like I’m sinking deeper and deeper into the abyss of old habits and I don’t know where and what to conquer and stick to it. I’ve watched everything all cures but do nothing for long. Then a thought comes why am I worrying about all this when it’s all god’s plan and then again fall into the cycle in a day or two. I don’t understand anything. You’ll guide me and I’ll not even follow that for more than three days. Can I possibly do anything to grow and rise to a balanced living?
I have a simple suggestions for you.
Sit quietly for 10 min everyday and think about the purpose of your life.
Play some games and engage in regular exercises.
Call the Mother’s Name, Ma, as often as you can and dedicate everything you do to Her.
Let me know after two months how are you doing.
Affectioneatly,
Alok Da
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She already had her identification with the Divine Mother, the Mother of the gods. That had happened already in 1914 as you will see in Her prayers of September 1914. Sri Aurobindo had also recognised it long back. It was because of this identification that She could bring down the gods in the Ashram atmosphere and in the consciousness of the disciples. It was due to her tapasya that Sri krishna accepted to bind himself with Sri Aurobindo’s being.
Yes I understand that. There is a difficulty with the Indian mind also because we are accustomed to a certain spiritual outlook that often misses many intermediary links that connect the spiritual and the material.Ā
These links serve as various roads and bridges or else as roadblocks, obstacles to our spiritual journey. In simple words our nature, meaning thereby our thoughts, feelings, impulses, motives, passions, desires, the entire range…
Yes but the world is full of such things. Even great wars have taken place over women, wealth and power.