But one question I had and still have that has not been answered, and it’s a long question, because there are caveats to it, so I would be eternally grateful to you if you could give me just a few minutes of your precious time to speak with you, as this is something very personal to me. Nonetheless, in case I am not able to get a direct conversation with you, I will ask the question, which is not complete, but the overview is:
– “Can I reach the Divine, even if I have sinned a lot in my life, knowingly and unknowingly?
– Can I reach the Divine if my sin was against the Divine (things I would like to explain personally, if possible)?
– Have some such people sinned and reached the Divine in one single lifetime (I know Sri Aurobindo talked about Angulimala, Jagai Madhai and Ratnakar, but those are not convincing enough to me sir, because they met literal Avatars and Gods, whom we say in Scriptures just by looking at them, the sin gets dissipated…)?”
There is a lot more to ask along the lines of this question, and thinking about this has made me depressed and hard to move on in life and focus on the Divine, so I would love to hear from you, sir, who is so close to the Divine.
Who is there who has not ‘sinned?’ Who can claim that he or she has never done anything that is not aligned with the Divine? Human nature is full of defects and errors. It is prone to all kinds of evil due to the evolutionary past that drags the animal and the asuric stages into our human present. But we all have a future, all irrespective of who we are or were, regardless of what we have done. Sri Aurobindo confirms what the Gita says, that even the worst of sinners should be regarded as a saint if he takes to the Divine Path. He is quickly purified and uplifted towards the highest. This is the promise of Sri Krishna, and Sri Aurobindo has put his own seal of finality upon it.
In fact, the Divine does not even see these things as sin. Our true identity is our soul, the psychic being in us that is forever pure. To the Divine, we are all portions of Himself, forever linked with Him, tied by an unseen chord of love. It is just that we know it not, but He knows it.
So do not worry anymore. Sin belongs to the past, to a humanity that needed it at one point in time. There is no sin in God’s eye but only a preparation for a good struggling to emerge. There are no mistakes in God’s eyes but only an effort to arrive at the truth of things.
Here are some words of the Mother revealing to us the great secret, the secret and mystery of the Divine Love.
‘What value have our impulses and our desires, our anguish and our violence, our sufferings and our struggles, all these inner vicissitudes unduly dramatised by our unruly imagination—what value do they have before this great, this sublime and divine love bending over us from the innermost depths of our being, bearing with our weaknesses, rectifying our errors, healing our wounds, bathing our whole being with its regenerating streams?
For the inner Godhead never imposes herself, she neither demands nor threatens; she offers and gives herself, conceals and forgets herself in the heart of all beings and things; she never accuses, she neither judges nor curses nor condemns, but works unceasingly to perfect without constraint, to mend without reproach, to encourage without impatience, to enrich each one with all the wealth he can receive; she is the mother whose love bears fruit and nourishes, guards and protects, counsels and consoles; because she understands everything, she can endure everything, excuse and pardon everything, hope and prepare for everything; bearing everything within herself, she owns nothing that does not belong to all, and because she reigns over all, she is the servant of all; that is why all, great and small, who want to be kings with her and gods in her, become, like her, not despots but servitors among their brethren.
How beautiful is this humble role of servant, the role of all who have been revealers and heralds of the God who is within all, of the Divine Love that animates all things….’
(Ref. https://incarnateword.in/cwm/02/the-supreme-discovery)
Time does not permit me to have phone conversations, but you can always write to me here or email me at askalokda@gmail.com
Affectionately
Alok da
