I deeply wish to find the Purpose of my life. I feel that the aim is She, the goal is She, all is She, and still not only the joy and love I experience I offer at Her Lotus Feet, but even the garbage within me, I offer it all at Her Feet. And sometimes, I feel guilty of it.
And then these questions come up which disturb the quietness, the calm I feel sometimes…..”If all is truly She, then why do these movements of insecurity, falsehood, greed, and attachment to material things still exist within me?”And even after all these reflections, the question remains unanswered: ‘What is the true purpose of my life?’
It is because we are not made up of one piece. There are different parts in us, some open to Her, others half open, yet others waiting for their moment of opening and those that resist the opening. Everyone faces these resistances and insincerities. One need not be troubled by them but calmly keep offering them, steadily will for their removal, try to refuse and push them out when they arise and, continue increasing the aspiration and nourishing and strengthening the parts that you feel in the quiet moments. Continue to aspire with faith and confidence in Her Grace and eventually even the toughest resistances will melt away. Persevere with faith and the path and the goal will grow clearer and nearer.
Affectionately,
Alok Da
