Now my question is, after my vision where Dada took me thru the wall (well he passed thru the wall and I remember I came out of the room thru the physical door.) and I had the soul contact with him, you had mentioned that he is with The Mother now, and I had very strong feeling and still have that conviction that the Karmic account between us is resolved, is it still not good to think about him as much I do?
It is never good to think of those who have passed beyond except when there is genuine gratitude and in a loving way. Memories, attachments, emotional ties etc do not do any good to either and may even be harmful.
The reason this came up last night is, I think Dada has become the connection between me and Shri Aurobindo and The Mother. Because I start each meditation with praying to Shri Aurobindo and The Mother, but yesterday some thought and the image of Dada came in front of my eyes before I went into kind of trance, and I was able to go deep in. I was aware of the fact that Dada had something to do with it.
It is the association in the mind of the help you received from him. That helped during the meditation. It was like a deep psychic memory and not an actual contact.
What is going on between myself and my father? Is this healthy or am I being selfish and hindering his advancement?
It is an attachment that keeps bringing up the memory again and again. It may not make any difference to him but is not good for you.
Affectionately,
Alok Da
