Marriages do not work out as we expect them to do because of the gap between the ideal and the strength and sacrifice needed to realise it. This is very much missing today in the fast food and utilitarian culture imported largely from the West. But the Divine is always willing to help us realise the Ideal. He is not the spoilsport to our happiness but the helper and guide and it is only rarely that he does not grant a sincere prayer, and only when He sees the harm that may accrue through it. The reason why relationships end up badly is not God but our incapacity to love. A love full of demands, expectations, wishes and desires based on the need for pleasure or happiness is not so much love but emotional and vital hunger. So too a love calculating gain and loss is a business and a marriage based on social benefits is a transaction. These are as good as failures even if it succeeds by outer standards. So grow in love and try to make it beautiful and sincere. That is all that is needed.

While Mother’s grace helped me navigate the initial grief, daily chest stiffness, recurring nightmares of cardiac arrest, and distorted dreams of losing family have now become deeply distressing. In waking life, I am exhausted by persistent intrusive thoughts urging me to give up, accompanied by heavy self-criticism whenever I feel misaligned with my spiritual path. 🌑🕊️💪🙏[…]
This seems to be a wave of depression that is trying to catch you, partly because of the loneliness as you don’t seem to have a good friend to share your issues and troubles. Partly it is because of lack of clarity about a goal. Aimlessness often opens the doors to fears.
Do some specific prayer and mantra everyday and also spend some time doing vigorous physical workout. It helps wash away lot of things…

