Recently I had a dream: I was at this place that I had never seen before, there was a river and my physical mother was there in that river with me. I could feel the water and the base and also the base of the river was hard concrete but a bit uneven. Then I wanted to take the water in my hands but could not so I had a shiny silver foil like thing from which I made a bowl like thing and then took the water in it. Then a white seagull flew above my head make it’s chirping noise and I really liked it. Can you please explain this?

I have been taking antipsychotics for the last 15.5 years (olanzapine 15 mg every night). The issue is – I feel a bad mood and irritation for 4-6 hours after getting up from sleep every day. Is it happening because of my psychosis condition, dear Alok da? 🔮😫😥🦋✨

March 12, 2026

Yes, it is due to an instability in nature. Psychosis itself is the result of this instability that arises because the consciousness has got centered around the little ego and perceives everything from that point of view. Learn to step back and do not accept every thought and suggestion or flow with every feeling as if it is true.

Reading all the writings, all the answers to my seekings, there remains a gap, a feeling of being unanswered. My inner call says that I can’t know anything fully while staying in the same dimension; there is a higher level or dimension than my present one, or maybe many of them, and only when I reach there, my quest will end. 🤔🌷🌄✨

March 12, 2026

Yes, of course, reading and writing prepare the ground, they are not a replacement or substitute for direct experience which comes through the meeting of Aspiration and the Grace.

Jai Maa. Today I was reading the Two Natures chapter from Essays on the Gita and there Sri Aurobindo explains that the desire in consonance with dharma does not lead to any bondage, while there he also mentions that desire born of Rajogun leads to bondage and misery. 📖✒️😊🙏🏻🌻[…]

March 12, 2026

He has already answered this as you have correctly indicated, through the svabhava. Svabhava is the Divine Impulsion in creation that generates karma. It is the swabhava of the…

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I have been taking antipsychotics for the last 15.5 years (olanzapine 15 mg every night). The issue is – I feel a bad mood and irritation for 4-6 hours after getting up from sleep every day. Is it happening because of my psychosis condition, dear Alok da? 🔮😫😥🦋✨

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