Dear Alok da, I have a difficulty in work. I want to remain always the important person in the team, getting to do the impactful stuffs in the project. I feel a bit dejected when this doesn’t happen. Is this due to hidden ambition or desire? I know this is an obstacle to inner life, I end up feeling restless during meditation and lose Her Presence and contact, feel guilty, but keep repeating it. Can you please help me suggest ways to remain calm and focused on feeling Her Presence irrespective of the outer conditions😥.

Yes, it is a form of ambition which is quite natural at your age. But the paradox is that the more we want to be at the centre our focus shifts from the work to the results. This ends up making us increasingly restless and interferes with the work itself. 

In any case the fact is that the results are never in one’s hands. It is a complex play of forces which cannot be manipulated by anyone, especially in the present state of ignorance. Hence it is best to focus on doing the work well, to pursue excellence, do it as a service and worship of the Divine and leave the results completely in the Divine hands. 

In any case guilt has no place on the path of Yoga. One has to learn and grow and keep learning and growing. 

Affectionately,

Alok Da