I’m losing my capacity to act as per my will. I find often that I’m going back on my commitment that I make to others or I’m often late to events. Also, these days, I’m noticing that my fluency in speech and writing has gone down. I’m making mistakes, and even while arguing in debates, discussions, I find myself making flawed arguments.😏[Conti]

Try practicing meditation with the Gaytri mantra and cut down on sex and wasteful activities. Play games and stay happy doing the work that engages you most. 

How do I strengthen my will and purify my speech and buddhi, and rectify these flaws?

Take the name of God, pray and meditate, read books such as the Gita to purify nature. 

Affectionately,

Alok Da

My main problem is the loss of substance that happens at night in the dream state. (Many times I’m not even conscious of the dream). It sometimes happens when I go to sleep late and tired (I have tried to freshen up  at times by taking a shower or reading from Mother and Sri Aurobindo or meditating  or doing japa before sleep, but many times it isn’t effective), but mostly it’s unpredictable. This has been cause of much embarassment to me, and I am at wits end on how to stop it. I read Sri Aurobindo’s letter to a disciple in which he instructed to put a will on the organ before sleeping, but it is not working for me. 

Keep persevering without letting guilt, embarrassment or frustration. The mechanisms of Nature built and entrenched in the body for billions of years don’t yield easily. Make sure that the mind does not get engaged in an all out fight with this part of nature as it will sap away a lot of energy simply in an effort to repress. Rather focus mostly on the growth of the soul and the higher diviner parts, do not think about sex. It will drop off as you grow in inner Peace and turn more and more towards HER. 

Affectionately,

Alok Da