I kept chanting the whole (Om Namah Shivay) Mantra as I had never heard this before. I pictured Sri Aurobindo, and I had these waves and tingling all over my body! It kept and still keeps happening when I picture him while chanting.
The day before yesterday, I got up middle of the night to use the bathroom and saw – imagine a picture frame, inside the frame, all around it was dark black all around, right in the middle, there was a big square that had black but twinkling light. I got so scared, I turned around, I wanted to drink water, but I couldn’t even do that, and just got into bed and stayed there. The next day, I thought I was chanting Lord Shankara’s Mantra, so I should have just gone and faced it. Now I am not sure about that anymore. What was that, and what should I have done?
It was a beautiful experience. The darkness was the prelude to the emergence of the true light, a sign that you were proceeding on the right path. But fear stepped in and spoiled what was growing.
Never mind, get back to the practice and wait for the next revelation, when you are inwardly ready.
Affectionately,
Alok Da
