Even I feel attracted to multiple deities. There is an organization called pyramid society , they tell all kind of experiences from astral travel to pastlives and third eye etc stuff. They are simply doing anapanasati meditation and their experiences are amazing. I am also so much drawn to tantra but being on bhakti marga , having chosen vrindavan rasupasana I have not yet able to practically developed any bhava in my heart…with each passing day I feel restless as what is my path and why don’t I become single-minded.
The description of your journey clearly indicates that Sri Krishna is turning you from a narrow bhakti towards gyana. Once the basis of gyana is laid then a much deeper, truer and wider bhakti will emerge leading you to the eternal Vrindavan within you and beyond the earth. Seek Him in all things but know that He alone is. All experiences and paths are simply partial glimpses, often indirect and far off. It is only love that can take to the core.
Affectionately,
Alok Da
