The night I reached at home in Pune I cried intensely in my room. But after sometime the feeling went into the background. But it comes up time to time whenever I come across anything related to them especially any documentary with The Mother’s music in it. I feel a deep pain in the chest area.
It is very much a psychic sorrow and the sign that you are not only meant for this yoga but who knows, at some point of time, make this your living place. The Ashram is your true home and The Mother and Sri Aurobindo are our parents. But right now prepare yourself for their work and wait for the imperative call one day. Until then come as and when you can, twice or perhaps thrice a year, until the day when you can live here permanently one day.
Affectionately,
Alok Da
