AT THE FEET OF THE MOTHER

I feel completely lost and depressed. Nothing in my life is going the way I want. My job isn’t giving me the financial stability I desire, and no matter how hard I try, I feel stuck. My wife left me, my girlfriend left me, and I have no one to turn to. I come home to an empty space, and it feels unbearable. Sometimes, I don’t even want to come home at all, I just want to disappear. The loneliness is crushing. I long for a life partner, someone to stand by me, but no one ever stays. Is it wrong to want that? Is it too much to ask for someone who truly cares? I drink just to escape these thoughts, but the pain always comes back. I don’t know how much longer I can keep going like this.

First thing first. Nothing and nobody is or should be more important than your own life and progress, unless you are in love, which is not the case. If you want care then first you must give care. Fill your loneliness with learning new things rather than alcohol which is only going to make things worse. Trust God and His plans and in your free time do some social service where you may possibly find some friends to share your journey. 

Affectionately,

Alok Da