I am already 58 years old and I have somehow primarily focused during the career on financial, so-called, stability. And, now, it seems that duty towards my mental perception of money requirements, and that of my wife, are over.
I could focus little on my minimally developed faith and my mind remained occupied towards financial stability. -as I came from family that did not have financial stability due to lack of savings on my parents’ side due to complete detachment to money! That bothered me when I passed through an accident compounded with orthopedic issues, realizing looming financial insecurity.
Current stage allows me, now combined with fairly relaxed job I have, to introspect more than before. I read about existence of subtle worlds, evolutionary nature of existence and that finally, leads me to the possibly a right question -who am I and with what purpose I am here. What I have achieved in previous lives however partially, and what should be my FOCUS in this life on?
Of the Lord or Mother would be there in human form, I would have asked them like their child , all of these. But now, with my psychic unawakened , what do I do ?? I have no mental calm or quietude. I am trying to develop that but with my so-called major depressive disorder, which seems treatment resistant, I feel that I am at a loss. Various drugs such as Desvenlafaxine plus adjuvant Methylphenidate -my current concoction – makes my mind over excited or under excited and I fail to reach a steady state of mind to do anything meaningful in my life.
I live aborad I have been listening to your You Tube videos quite frequently , fairly regularly. These help me know many fundamentals relatively easily. And I value them a lot. My mind’s habit of reading is less cultivated. And your videos, short or long, give me information, inspiration and joy.
I pray, I get help to resolve my queries by the Grace, hopefully through you or some or the other way. Hope to continue with this quest most constantly. who am I and with what purpose I am here. What I have achieved in previous lives however partially.
One of the most beautiful answer that the Mother gave to this question about ‘Who am I’ is very simply, ‘the Divine in many disguises. It is the most comprehensive answers I have read. And it is our task to discover Him from this side of the creation thereby joining the two ends or poles of existence, the spiritual and the material. This is no easy task and hence the great adventure, the journey across lives progressively growing conscious of the Divine in us and then joining this core with all we think and speak and do. Reading and understanding are the first steps, aspiration to know, to discover and live is the next step into which you have entered. Read and try to put into practice all that you read. That is the path. Even a little practice helps us go a long way, especially with the support of the Divine Mother’s Grace.
The basic thing to be established first are Peace and Equanimity, inner Remembrance of the Divine as often as one can and, an inner offering of all we do to the Divine Mother. Rest develops in due course of time.
Affectionately,
Alok Da
