The sandook is the past subconscious store of experiences that have come with you. Dadi also represents that. These seeds sown in the past and the influences of different, even opposite kinds are acting. But the saving Grace is that you have got the right key, the Mother’s Name. Hence some of these growths, pleasant or painful are dropping off which is a good thing. But your outer personality is attached to the past and hence is crying.
Best is to leave the past behind and forge ahead with the help of Her Grace.
Affectionately,
Alok Da
Follow up question:
Which part of my past am I attached to that is being explained to me through the symbols in my dreams? I am not able to understand it, and I don’t know what to let go of. I am very confused.
There are many things that remain buried in the subconscient. We are generally not conscious of them. They show up sometimes as fleeting wishes and passing fears, tendencies during childhood. One has to be quite sincere to detect them. Sometimes these could be seeds of the past that sprout in this life, out of the stock of karmas. It need not be something bad. The dream is not trying to explain you anything. They are often simply hints or notations of something going on inside. Here, in the dream it is only an indication and not any suggestion for action. So offer it to the Divine and be happy. It is only the Divine Grace that can clear the subconscient and let beautiful flowers bloom in desert sands and make the plants come alive and bear happy fruits out of near dead seeds.
Affectionately,
Alok Da
