Dear Alok da, I read your answer recently about how to know that someone is possessed by Hostile Forces, my question is in that context. I have recently moved to a new place where we were staying in the flat provided by company for two months and meanwhile we were traveling also back to my old house to transfer all our belongings to new place . I faced a situation with myself , which was later termed as panic attack as I got very angry and lost touch with reality.I did started feeling of fear from the airport itself when I was travelling back to my old house .Later in the day I had an episode which who ever saw can say that I got psychologically disturbed .Infact my husband has to call emergency services because of my situation and I was kept whole night under observation. I was feeling very disturbed from the airport was anxious and I wanted to end up my life because of some petty reason. This has never happened with me earlier . 

 I did feel energy of hatred while traveling with my husband and in the house. In the hospital I was getting irrational thoughts in my mind and I was praying for help to Mother , Baba and you . And I would say that in my mind there was interrogation going on by someone and I was scared so much that if I reveal someone name they would end up getting hurt. Before this event happened I was staying alone in the flat with my child for few days as husband has gone out for few days due to work. There was nothing unusual Infact I was reading books of Sri Aurobindo and listening your lectures and just usual daily work.Infact that night I had so much unusual thoughts and experience in the hospital that I can’t explain. My whole body was shaking uncontrollably with few intervals and I am not sure what led to all this but I ended up in very bad situation in hospital and after they released me the next day in afternoon, I was scared to read any books or hear your lectures even . The anxiety did linger on me for few days but everything became normal after few days . The doctors just gave me some anxiety medication and nothing much . I don’t know this event is due to any repressed emotions of my own or any unusual hostile forces . I have no idea what led to all this . I just wanted to share this event because that day in hospital it felt like I was fighting a war with my mind and I wanted to end my life by donating myself for research as I felt no purpose of life suddenly.I hope you can give some inputs and also what should I do if it happens again with me .

From the description it does seem like a hostile force taking hold of some subconscious angers and frustrations and erupting to the surface. It is good that it has passed away. I don’t think it has to do with the change of house etc. In any case what would help is to keep Her blessing packet or wear her symbol ring or locket. If these are not there do carry pocket size Savitri and the photographs of the Mother and Sri Aurobindo with you. If you feel anger or fear rising hold Savitri to your heart, look at Their picture and simply call ‘Maa Maa Maa Maa Maa Maa’. That should work. 

But let us hope and pray that this has passed away for good never to return again by Her Grace. 

Affectionately,

Alok Da