Everyone still has their Diwali lights and I think amazing anyways …I had missed looking at other homes and their diwali lights decorations on morning walk anyways… suddenly I go to the open area in front of home with grass and try to defecate but then I see all the neighbours one at their gate and others are on rooftop and I wonder that they saw me so I feel ashamed and then I saw another guy and his brother.. from another home but ( in reality he doesn’t have a brother and lives far) running looking for something but he is coming towards me….so I run ashamed and as I run….I see many corpses packed in white and many autos. I get scared. And someone tells me these are the bodies and that person sitting their does this as part time. I run away but those two brothers are unbothered and happily looking for their thing..
This is close to a big empty garbage filled nallah near my place. I run from that place, and a guy comes after me…an adolescent kid and I stop him to not come near and squish his face but he keeps coming …so he asks me….if I am the girl who will be sacrificed for the conflict of muslim and hindu. They said she will be 17. I say I’m not seventeen and run home. I made a whole square turn. Ran straight from home and came back and completed a whole square to come home . I am seeing snakes as well in dreams. Black, half black half red. Woke up and realised this is my Second time this week seeing corpses….maybe in some last dream…I was surrounded by the dead bodies and all black and dark atmosphere and I escape.
And also in another dream, I remember again I was talking to somebody in dream world who either was a ghost or a bad spirit in a body of humans .
I shifted into one room and then another room in the past 12 days or so but then anyways I usually get weird dreams many times. Dreams make me worry. They seem very real to me like something bad will happen and those people were real
I offer them to Mother in the morning. But then I feel scared when I again see the same dream again
Ghost, corpse, family are all subconscient symbols. Snakes are fear. Red snakes are fear in the body. There is also fear of social disapproval. Offer all these fears to the Divine and slowly they will leave you little by little completely.
Affectionately,
Alok Da
