She is everything to me and I can’t feel her presence anymore. It’s not that I don’t feel joy in doing this residency i do I have amazing co-jrs , but I feel like all this is taking me away from Her.
Do not leave the work you are doing. It is She who has given this work to you to prepare you for the future. Instead of using headphones that attract such scoldings, just remember Her in your heart and use hands free blue tooth if you wish to listen. Do it when people are not around and work is of a routine nature. This is just a passing phase. Go through it with faith and equanimity and complete trust in Her Grace while keeping the aspiration silently growing within.
Affectionately,
Alok Da
