On some days when I feel good, the answer is yes. But most times, perhaps not! I have been fooling myself that I am different -it is just that each one of us holds on to something like wealth, position, or power closely and does not wish to part with it. In my case, it is not these three, but I am no different!
I realised I can be selfish because I do not consent that if a trouble is conquered in me, then it should happen so in others, including people I do not necessarily get along with. My current state is that there are some people who have not been nice to me and I don’t see why they should benefit. Maybe because I am so attached to my struggle?
What is the remedy for this? Is it because I haven’t accepted some people in my life? Is that why The Mother says She is the one doing the sadhana for us, so that we may not be attached to the progress?
I see why Sri Aurobindo is The Greatest – He struggled so much to reach the highest and yet He shares the secret with love and leads everyone on that path without discriminating.
Yes, it is never easy to conquer the inner enemies and discover our inmost truth, without which all else we do remains incomplete, subjecting us to a seesaw of joy and sorrow. It takes time until one reaches the point when the Divine becomes not only an object of curiosity or distant admiration but one very close to us, intimate and real. Seeking Him becomes our primary aim and objective. It is then that life takes a true and happy turn.
May you and everyone share the happiness that comes from a living and loving trust in the Divine.
Affectionately
Alok Da
CWM 15 (4) || Steps of the Soul || Dr. Alok Pandey
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