Seeing the condition of people, seeing the condition of the world, or the feeling of still not being able to give myself completely to my mother, it causes me great pain. In these 4-5 days, on one hand, I am feeling that I do not want anything that takes me away from my mother even for a moment. On the other hand, somewhere deep inside, my soul finds happiness in this and then I feel very restless. How do I understand this, Dada, and how do I deal with it now?
It is a stage through which every aspirant passes through. The old world begins to lose its shine though something is still attracted by force of habit. The remedy is to turn more and more towards the future. It is also an opportunity to practise equanimity and surrender as well as see the Divine in everyone and everything.
Affectionately,
Alok Da
