As to the medicines I will not advice you to stop them. You should continue them in consultation with your doctor.
Now if you really want to come out, if you truly have a sincere will to come out of this state then stop lamenting and thinking about your depression. The more you think about the difficulties, any difficulty, it will increase further. Instead, focus on what you want to do, what you want to be.
Do not even entertain thoughts of suicide. It will complicate your issues further and put the stamp of depression for lives to come. We must face with faith and courage the problems that come to us in life.
It is important to stay busy and do regular physical exercises. Pray to God to give you courage and faith.
Affectionately,
Alok Da


