Could you please explain what this all means? If I am meant to be with her, how would that take me away from my true destiny or go against God’s will? How is asking ‘Maa’ for her considered straying from my true destiny—especially when the very destiny that had previously closed this path is now reopening it? Does that not imply it is ‘Maa’s’ will?
All restlessness, impatience, over eagerness of desires are clearly going in one direction, whereas love and service of the Divine are in quite another. One doesn’t rely on dreams to decide these things. Dreams easily lie, as the mind can easily create desirable images. I am surprised that you are still unable to see the consequences of this love. Destiny may grant us many things, but they may not be good; in fact even be harmful from the higher point of view. Leave aside other things. Don’t you see that after the initial joy is over, this relationship will bring nothing but pain to her. Do you want to leave your family and live with her? Will she accept this situation of being the other woman in your life? Is she ready to live by your love even though socially neither you nor her family will accept it? Is she fine to have this love secret forever, running the risk of court cases, even physical danger to you or her, become responsible for all the pain to your present family and child? Dreams don’t tell these things. You have to use your own Vivek, discernment and make your choice and go through the consequences. All that I can say is that you are at the crossroads of your life. You have to decide and go through the consequences. I have explained enough.
May you be guided by Wisdom rather than rash emotions and impulse. May you fulfil your soul’s aspiration rather than your desire for a transient human happiness.
Affectionately,
Alok Da
