I am a warrior, and always things have come difficult to teach me perseverance, but today I feel so sad, and I don’t know what to do. It is as if even the Divine is not able to succeed with an instrument like me. I don’t know what to do anymore. I don’t know how to overcome the doctor’s negativity who feels that my body can’t produce good eggs. I don’t know how to ask Mother how to avoid mistakes in each try. I am so tired. Would you please provide me with guidance from the Mother?
The Divine is not there to fulfil our ignorant desires. Why push and force our ignorant will on God, who knows much better than us as to what is really good for our lives. While I understand the desire for motherhood in a woman, yet that cannot be made the goal and centre of our life. It is time to think about your own goal, which surely is much greater than making a family. In fact, if the Mother has been working on your body, then all the more reason that the body should be turned towards higher purposes than the usual purpose of motherhood.
Yet if the impulse to motherhood is too strong and the usual medical means are failing, you can always adopt a child and go through the experience.
Affectionately,
Alok Da
