But that doesn’t not completely annul these tendencies and often they repeat again and the entire process is repeated. Though I feel disgusted by these tendencies, honestly, there is yet another part inside that clearly draws a strange sense of pleasure out of these littleness and I also realise it is this sense of pleasure that doesn’t let them go completely
This is great progress. It means that the inner being is becoming free from the clutch of outer nature and its habitual reactions. Keep turning and offering more and more to The Mother as the different movements emerge until all is taken up and transformed by Her into the image of Truth. Here is a rendering of this experience at its ultimate level by Sri Aurobindo.
‘There are two beings in my single self.
A Godhead watches Nature from behind
At play in front with a brilliant surface elf,
A time-born creature with a human mind.
Tranquil and boundless like a sea or sky,
The Godhead knows himself Eternity’s son.
Radiant his mind and vast, his heart as free;
His will is a sceptre of dominion.
The smaller self by Nature’s passions driven,
Thoughtful and erring learns his human task;
All must be known and to that Greatness given
His mind and life, the mirror and the mask.
As with the figure of a symbol dance
The screened Omniscient plays at Ignorance.’
Affectionately,
Alok Da
