Trust is a very precious, priceless gift. Even among human beings, it is special. But when it is towards the Divine, then it should be doubly carefully guarded.
Again, anger is an extremely harmful emotion towards anyone. It hurts and harms both, the one who harbours it and the one towards whom it is directed. But since one cannot harm or hurt the Divine Beings, it falls back upon oneself, creating a terrible karma. By all means, desist it. It is the straight road to fall.
You have asked me how to get rid of anger towards the Divine. Well, pray to the Divine to help you. Read the life of Sri Aurobindo so that you get at least a glimpse of who He is. Read these words of the Mother inscribed on the Samadhi of Sri Aurobindo again and again till they get imprinted within you.
‘To Thee who hast been the material envelope of our Master, to Thee our infinite gratitude. Before Thee who hast done so much for us, who hast worked, struggled, suffered, hoped, endured so much, before Thee who hast willed all, attempted all, prepared, achieved all for us, before Thee we bow down and implore that we may never forget, even for a moment, all we owe to Thee.’
(Ref. https://incarnateword.in/cwm/13/mahasamadhi#p6)
With prayers that you come out of this dark and hostile influence soon.
Alok da
