While I was watching a short clip of Ramanand Sagar’s Sri Krishna, there was a scene where Sri Krishna was talking to that Sage who was about to curse him for letting the War happen and Sri Krishna was revealing Himself to him. I got emotional, tears flowed, unsteady breath, the usual emotional things happened, my inner heart opened, and for nanoseconds, it seemed that I got immersed in Sri Krishna.
Then the Mother’s image came. Then, after a while, things got normal. But, during the event, I was chewing Tobacco, meaning it was in my mouth. When the normal state came, I felt a guilt that I was using Tobacco during this Beautiful Event and from that moment, I decided that I must avoid Tobacco completely. Yet, I felt weak before my addiction, then I started slowly walking around the room, finding the mental ways and means to quit it completely, but I felt the weakness.
Suddenly, a Thought manifested itself in the form of a Beautiful Inner Voice, but the Voice was not the usual one in which I think; it was different, it was a Man’s voice, Soft but Firm, Gentle but holding a Power Within. It said exactly this in Hindi: “क्या तुम डिवाइन के लिए भी नहीं छोड़ सकते ?”, and I absorbed it. I decided then and there that I have to do nothing with Tobacco, since then I have not used Tobacco, yet I am still vigilant and watching the Inner state, and yes, stirs of addiction still comes time to time but I ignore it with indifference. I am feeling now that addiction is gone. But it was not my effort. What happened, Alok da, it just poof… gone… and I am an addiction-free guy.
What happened is indeed the Divine Mother’s Grace, for whom nothing is impossible. It is a clear sign that She is with you, watching over you, and leading you towards your true destiny.
Affectionately,
Alok Da
