My refuge has always been the Mother’s grace, but I find myself caught between fear, emotional attachment, and the impulse to react when provoked. How do I practice true surrender and inner detachment in the face of such continuous hostility? Should I view these trials as reflections of my own inner fears, and how do I find the strength and courage to protect my well-being while walking the Mother’s path?
The only proper feasible option before you is to progressively detach yourself inwardly from your husband while outwardly doing your duties with the changed spirit of service of the Divine Mother. When the children grow up enough, you can carve out your independent life. In any case, it is idle to expect that your husband will change unless there is an unprecedented miracle. The less you interact with him, the better it is.
Most important is that you must now fix your higher goal and walk towards it with firm resolve. What happened in the past had to happen. It is useless to blame oneself. One can even look at it as a process of purification, a learning experience through which you had to pass. There is no need to prolong it now. Its purpose is over. You have learned your lessons. Better to move towards the future which is with the Divine Mother.
With prayers and the Mother’s Love
Alok da
