But this tends towards seeking perfection..this thought came to me just now and I have applied it for a few times but I dont know why it feels overwhelming and my inner self tends to reject this idea..I feel even if I apply it..it will fade away (I am a procrastinator and lazy I seek instant dopamine..since scrolling or several other things had become a habit..when I come back to them after avoiding or building a new habit..I still scroll..I know this habit is never going to cease so i deleted youtube for a while but i don’t think that is a permanent solution. Since I need youtube for several other things.) And also for example if I get angry (which I dont want to ofcourse but sometimes I do get irritated and say things which I shouldn’t be saying be it minor rude words..so can I ask the Mother to take it away and offer it to her? So offering can work both ways..for doing what is required and for fixing the habits that suck? Also my thoughts very unclear and non systematic..neither am I fully conscious and aware about my surroundings..I try to say things out loud in my mind which I am currently looking at or hear or smell or taste..will that help? Plus I have issues with saying the right thing in the right time..I can’t decide whether to say a thing or not..what to say and how to say so that the other person doesn’t misinterpret it..
Yes, all, all, all, everything can be and should be offered along with an aspiration and a prayer to come out of the difficulties and grow along the directions you aspire for. Who else can everything be offered? Who else can mould us, chipping away the unnecessary things that stick to us while bringing out our beautiful possibilities.
Write a diary to the Mother praying for the things you aspire to be and what you would want to discard. At the same time do your little bit, the little effort, however small in this direction. It supports the working and the action of the Grace.
Affectionately,
Alok Da
