It is the ego-individuality that shrinks at the contact of the Divine as it is afraid of losing itself. It is not uncommon for the ego-self to react like that. But there is nothing to feel sad about it. Her coming towards you itself is a sign that She is watching over you. It is a promise of the future that will realise itself once you are ready. She is with you, never to leave.
Keep turning towards the Mother with love, devotion and service. Open yourself to Her and let all fears dissolve in Her arms of Love.
Affectionately,
Alok Da
