There is, somewhere in the back, a voice saying, “What if not?” “What if She doesn’t help when you need her?” And this does waver my faith somewhere. I know that I should listen to it, but I always stop at this point; I don’t know what to say to that question. How to handle this, how to move forward?
It means that faith is there, but the trust is missing. A simpler way is to pray every day and as often as you can. Express the prayer for help with clarity rather than a vague appeal. Keep a diary with a picture of The Mother and address to Her your prayers. Use a mantra as your personal access code and connection with the Mother. Keep a Blessings packet of Her with you and whenever in difficulty, call Her Name simply as Maa Maa Maa Maa Maa Maa
Affectionately,
Alok Da
