While Mother’s grace helped me navigate the initial grief, daily chest stiffness, recurring nightmares of cardiac arrest, and distorted dreams of losing family have now become deeply distressing. In waking life, I am exhausted by persistent intrusive thoughts urging me to give up, accompanied by heavy self-criticism whenever I feel misaligned with my spiritual path. 🌑🕊️💪🙏[...]

Though I pray to Maa and occasionally touch a space of calm, I struggle with whether my intense longing for the Divine is pure aspiration or merely a reaction to my fear of illness and death. Even as I recognize these falsehoods, their increasing intensity makes me feel like I am spiraling and missing an essential piece of the puzzle.

This seems to be a wave of depression that is trying to catch you, partly because of the loneliness, as you don’t seem to have a good friend to share your issues and troubles with. Partly, it is because of a lack of clarity about a goal. Aimlessness often opens the doors to fears.

Do some specific prayer and mantra every day and also spend some time doing vigorous physical workouts. It helps wash away a lot of things.

You can also take the help of guided imagery and give yourself positive suggestions such as Peace, peace, peace and, I am fine, All will be well, etc.

Rest when I see you.

Affectionately,

Alok Da

Yes there are certain difficulties and problems going on in my life surrounding the family atmosphere and my career. I was in Pondi a few months ago and used to attend your sessions, you also know me personally, I have been on this path for a year now. During this time I have been through extreme mental challenges mainly because of a highly unstable career. I usually don’t really want to talk about the specific struggles but I am just being open now.

November 7, 2026

Yes, I understand. Life can be quite challenging at times. But once one navigates through it then there is born a real hero. There is no difficulty, inner or outer that cannot be eventually overcome by the Grace. But we have to hold on to faith and endure the

While Mother’s grace helped me navigate the initial grief, daily chest stiffness, recurring nightmares of cardiac arrest, and distorted dreams of losing family have now become deeply distressing. In waking life, I am exhausted by persistent intrusive thoughts urging me to give up, accompanied by heavy self-criticism whenever I feel misaligned with my spiritual path. 🌑🕊️💪🙏[…]

November 7, 2026

This seems to be a wave of depression that is trying to catch you, partly because of the loneliness as you don’t seem to have a good friend to share your issues and troubles. Partly it is because of lack of clarity about a goal. Aimlessness often opens the doors to fears.

Do some specific prayer and mantra everyday and also spend some time doing vigorous physical workout. It helps wash away lot of things…

Thank you for your guidance. Through recent reflection, I realized my struggles stemmed from a lack of true sincerity—reacting from superficial judgments, unnecessary fear, and wavering faith rather than seeing things with humility and patience. 🌱🔥🌸🙏[…]

November 7, 2026

To recognize the insincerities is itself a great step forward towards sincerity. Most people, even in the Yoga or so they believe, are unable to see their own hidden insincerities. It is indeed a Grace and the sign of the true spiritual life growing in you.

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