Are you not repeating the same mistake by asking for a step by step method? The fact is that reading does not help if we are not willing to apply what we read into practice. Books can at best guide us about what we should do. But the doing part, the action itself has to be done by us. That is what is known as the law of karma. Books, mantras, rituals cannot work on our behalf. They can at best prepare a ground. But they cannot bring a job and put it before you. For that you must labour yourself, search for a job that you can take up and then do it sincerely and regularly. Books can only tell us what should our right attitude during the work or towards the result. Mantras can prepare us to stay calm and have the courage but still you will have to find the right work and do it yourself. Even a doctor must see patients and take the actual practice. One doesn’t become a physician by reading a book. The mantra can give you some courage but the demon of fear is still to be fought by you.
Nor can suicide and lamenting about the parents of any help. It will only complicate things and increase the difficulty. Instead, the first effort should be to find a work for yourself, any reasonable work to earn honest livelihood. If depression is troubling you please do see a physician nearby who can help by way of treatment instead of spending money on rituals and occult practices.
With prayers
Affectionately
Alok Da
