Since it is my compulsion, so I have no option except to depend. Calling the Mother for relief is the only option. Still, I feel like I am always upset and tense. Such a mental condition is also a hurdle to my overall progress.
This happens because somewhere within we want to control the situations. That is not given to us. What is given to us is action and not the result.
Taking the Divine Name helps, but so long as the full faith and surrender is not there, these inner reactions will be there. Ask the Mother to give true faith, for if one has done what one could do and left the rest in the hands of the Divine, then there is no reason for worry. After all, there are so many things, so many factors we cannot control, so many unseen forces we cannot fathom. The only way is to have faith that all will be well.
It is also important not to express unhappiness and anger with the lady looking after the child in your absence. Explain to her what you expect, but avoid creating frictions.
Keep a CCTV Camera and, whenever possible, talk to the child at times. Give her a soft toy to hold, a toy charged with your love, as well as a natural flower fragrance that you can also use when you hold her. The child will feel the contact and the comfort.
Affectionately,
Alok Da
