I have started to have itching in my back, and I am not able to go to the doctor. Something stops me from going out of my house. At this time, when I read your answer for donating organs, I am still more frightened, Alok da. But I get some teachings automatically inside me. Please guide me as to what has to be done.
I completely understand the difficult time that you are going through. But why connect it to your visit to the Ashram or any other outer reasons? In fact, I feel whatever happened had to happen in the secret Providence of things. However, intuitively sensing the inevitable, your soul must have got connected to the Mother to find the needed inner support. But your outer mind is unable to understand that this is reacting in just the opposite manner. It is this anger towards the Divine that is further closing the doors to help and only making things worse.
Why should the Mother take things away from you? She is the Mother who is here to give and help and support each soul in its journey. Of course, everyone without exception goes through a set of difficulties and challenges in one’s life, one way or the other. It is the law of earthly life as it is through the challenges that we learn and grow. The Divine is there to help us through these difficulties. Try to cultivate faith, call for Peace, pray for the Mother to help you through this difficult patch that is not going to be there forever. As it is rightly said, tough times do not last, but tough people do. Seek the Divine Grace with all the faith that you can have at your disposal and all will be well in due course of time.
Affectionately,
Alok Da
