Dear Alok da, thank you—the lines from Sri Aurobindo in your email helped immensely, and while old holds haven't entirely left, they feel looser. I find myself happier in solitude, as outer interactions easily muddle my poise, while an intense inner longing to remain anchored to the Mother, Sri Aurobindo, and Sri Krishna continues to grow. 👩‍👧🕊️🙏🏼[...]

At the same time, I am distressed seeing our daughter suffer and wish to pursue the idea of co-parenting under one roof, though my ex-husband remains non-committal. I constantly try to call the Mother, yet I feel neither calm nor silent—what should I do, or should I simply wait?

Call The Mother, take Her Name and keep offering all your pain and dilemmas to Her. Surrender yourself to Her with faith and trust in Her.

Yes, you should speak to your ex-husband unless and until he takes a clear decision regarding bringing up the child jointly together.

Write or speak to the Mother all that you are going through. Allow Time and meanwhile make sure you remain busy with various activities,- work, music, reading, exercise, especially swimming if possible.

Sending you prayers that all be well.

Affectionately,

Alok da

Lately, I have been experiencing vivid dreams and waking visions featuring well-known cultural figures and intense scenarios—ranging from sudden surges of immense wealth and public adulation to dramatic confrontations where I find unexpected strength while chanting and remembering the Divine. 🌙🔍🙏🏼[…]

October 20, 2026

These dreams and visions belong to the intermediate vital worlds. It is a world that imitates Truth and misleads the soul through aggrandizing the ego and stimulating ambitions and desires. It is good that you defeated their designs and remembered The Mother and Sri Aurobindo.

A few months ago, I felt my practice of Integral Yoga had become overly mental and habitual—gathering concepts rather than living the sadhana—so I stepped away and followed a structured traditional discipline involving mantra-japa. 📖🕯️🙏🏼[…]

October 20, 2026

The sadhana once begun never really stops. Yes one encounters temporary halts, – almost everyone goes through these phases, but that is because we need to assimilate the gains of the sadhana. Often our outer nature may not even recognise. Yet one has received something but more is not coming in either because the container is small …