As you know, I was sitting with my father, touching him, when he passed on.
I had gone into the other room twice to ask The Mother to take him with her.
I was praying as I was massaging his arm ” Mataji, please use my a
hand to bring comfort to him.
Then around 3.25 am I started Mrutyunjaya Mantra on my phone, at 3.30am, he lifted both his arms as if to do namaskar, and they both fell down, together. I didn’t even know he was gone.
Dada’s is only death I have experienced so closely, plus he was my father, so whenever I think of soul, I think of him. But in no way I am trying to reach him anymore.
This is only about the Soul, not exactly his soul, any soul. What keeps me going back is to learn more about his Soul and something about me.
Last 10 days of his life I had taken care of him as if he was little child. In those last 10 days I experienced the love about him that was never there before, I attribute it to touching him, in India, at least when I was growing up, I don’t ever remember touching or hugging my father.
I had returned to US after my fourth visit to be with him, and I had to return to India in just 3 weeks. I didn’t want to come, I didn’t want to be there when he died, I didn’t want to see his body. I had told my mother that I will come very next day, but I don’t want to see him like that. And still I was there, and the love I shared in those last days is a gift! But after he passed away, I had a strong feeling, and I still do, that our Karmic transactions have been resolved, and that I might not meet this soul again. Going back to that day, what really went on? First time that I went out and stood in front of The Mother, she was just looking at me, I prayed.
About half an hour later I started the Mrutyunjaya Mantra, his arms fell, I didn’t realize what had happened, I went outside stood in front of Her again, and she was smiling. The timings of all these events are very curious.
I feel like something was definitely behind this. Dada’s Soul or The Mother? About 45 mins later I went out again, She looked at me very seriously, as if saying ‘don’t you understand?’ It almost took 10?11 months before I was transported to Sri Aurobindo and The Mother’s and saw this column of golden light, almost humming, I saw Dada there.
At the time you had said that I had made soul contact and he was telling you that he is with them now, and asked me to not feel the depression. And I haven’t seen him since then!
why did it take 11 months? why was I seeing him every day? Again, itโs not about my father, itโs about the Souls.
Can you please guide me?
It is not easy to arrive at this kind of high consummation of the soul after departure. Your father was especially blessed by Her Grace. The exact time taken does vary from few days to few years. My own intuitive feeling is that your father was watching over you due to strong attachment and love until finally he was called by the Mother to be with Her. It is then that he had to untie the knot between you and him. However before this final leap he came to bid you a final good bye. Now he is with the Mother and the future destiny of such a privileged person is not bound by any rule. He may come back or merge into the Mother. It is now between his soul and the Divine Mother.
Affectionately,
Alok Da
