I find it very beautiful to offer everything to the mother and I am content to receive her love, but in worldly life I wish to succeed, maybe become a public intellectual and writer. This is what I had meant. I have read that higher consciousness can leave us so content that desire simply doesn’t arise, but my heart refuses to forsake this desire.
Just to complete, the Higher Consciousness leaves you content at a fundamental level but being dynamic in nature, it also enlarges and aggrandises your true possibilities. It is just that this should not happen under the stress of the ego but as a natural flowering of latent possibilities under the pressure of the Divine and for the use of the Divine.
Here are some revealing words of The Mother in this regard.
‘True surrender enlarges you; it increases your capacity; it gives you a greater measure in quality and in quantity, which you could not have had yourself.’
(Ref. https://incarnateword.in/cwm/14/surrender#p5)
‘Surrender will not diminish, but increase; it will not lessen or weaken or destroy your personality, it will fortify and aggrandise it. Surrender means a free total giving with all the delight of the giving; there is no sense of sacrifice in it. If you have the slightest feeling that you are making a sacrifice, then it is no longer surrender. For it means that you reserve yourself or that you are trying to give, with grudging or with pain and effort, and have not the joy of the gift, perhaps not even the feeling that you are giving. When you do anything with the sense of a compression of your being, be sure that you are doing it in the wrong way. True surrender enlarges you; it increases your capacity; it gives you a greater measure in quality and in quantity which you could not have had by yourself. This new greater measure of quality and quantity is different from anything you could attain before: you enter into another world, into a wideness which you could not have entered if you did not surrender. It is as when a drop of water falls into the sea; if it still kept there its separate identity, it would remain a little drop of water and nothing more, a little drop crushed by all the immensity around, because it has not surrendered. But, surrendering, it unites with the sea and participates in the nature and power and vastness of the whole sea.’
(Ref. https://incarnateword.in/cwm/03/4-august-1929)
Her Love
Alok da
