There is no I sense, no outer personality, no outer environment exists, but only the strong wideness and peace exist. Everything vanishes that wideness; the mind expands itself in a strong way. After a few minutes, a fear arises to loose the whole being and suddenly the experience dropped out.
But dada in another experience I feel the same peace, wideness and anand over the head region and it also descent to the being but not experiencing the first one where everything is going out, but the second one give the witness feeling where I see every thought coming from outside and I smile and I feel all the human being, animal, flowers in different way in that state. After the experience is gone, I still cannot easily be bound by the thoughts.
But Dada, now I feel a strong, deep peace and wideness in the naval part. It gives a strong aspiration to do the work as an offering to the divine mother and spontaneously my whole daily work does not bind me, but it gives a smooth touch in the naval area. Dada, are these experiences helpful in our yoga? Because I am not interested to loose myself in the silent divine, but in loving the divine and participating in the great adventure. Still, Dada, the doubt remains here and how to completely get rid of this? I feel that doubt is the great impurity of being ungrateful towards the divine mother.
It is a true and genuine experience, a beautiful gift of Her Grace. Keep offering these experiences and the doubts and the work, everything, to the Mother and She will take you through it all.
Affectionately,
Alok Da
