my all hard work in cleaning the mind were eventually be futile, the worst part is that when it comes it brings a shame and insincerity and guilt, I can’t even face the mother , the divine has put a form of a woman and my mind is lusting on women, I can’t even pray for help to her out of shame and guilt.
But the most potent method which worked (or working) with me is the simple imagination of burning it in the Fire of Aspiration in the heart , that simple imagination works miraculously, amongst the all and there are innumerable ways in shashtras and different mahapurusha has suggested different ways, but this one that you have suggested worked (or working) absolutely perfect, I don’t know why, I even don’t know that the actual fire is present in me or not considering my stage of evolution, but I am getting good results doing this simple practice,
It is always the Grace that works when the time comes and it can use any means and methods, including the most seemingly paradoxical for its purposes. Shame and guilt preventing one from going to the Mother should be replaced with humility and surrender. Who else can we go or turn to in difficulties and even otherwise?
Of course there is a real inner Fire that can be seen with the subtle vision and felt with the subtle sense. Its warmth and light and sweetness and force can all be experienced within as well as through the outer coats. So the image is quite a true one.
Affectionately,
Alok Da
