Alongside these moments of atmaprasada and spontaneous psychic joy, however, I also experience an unfamiliar sadness centered purely in the heart rather than the mental ego. Could you shed light on how this deep melancholy coexists with pure ananda, and how I should understand this stage of the work?
All these experiences clearly point out that your psychic being has already emerged into the play. All these are conscious experiences of the psychic being. The atmaprasad, the spontaneous urge to offer to the Divine, the sweet sensation in the body, the mantra Maa are all psychic feelings. The sadness is not depression but the psychic sorrow as it looks at nature and the world at large as not yet ready for the Divine Life.
Beautiful Grace. Go deeper into the soul; prepare the fields of Nature through offering all movements to the Divine. Aspire for more and more sincerity, grow in faith and surrender.
Affectionately,
Alok Da
