2. I am not having ANY experience. But I am growing kinder, more tolerant, and calmer and having constant thought epiphanies every now and then. They don’t feel like mine. Need for food, sleep and sex has dwindled down a lot. Overall energy is much more in supply and there’s a “lightness” in being.
I feel calm, content and greatly more comfortable with my own company, with no active desire for any relationship. Pride and anger have gone down a lot as well. Anxiety and overthinking have dropped away, almost fully. My synthetic, reconciling thinking skills have gone up massively; I am having an easier time connecting disparate dots into new organized systemic wholes and the results are very impressive sometimes.
A gentle, perceptive, self-giving pathos seems to have become my spirit, almost imaginable as a lonely youth strolling lazily through a flower garden when dawn has just broken. My speech has grown sweeter; I remain mostly unaffected, at least unaffected by negativity around me to which I was very susceptible formerly, with the curious effect of my power and clarity of working against them having grown in proportion and creativity. Oh yes, my fear has shot down significantly as well.
I have had no “landmark” experiences I hear people reporting. Lights, sounds, oneness, archetypal dreams, synchronicities, changed behavior of people and animals, energy currents, rudimentary psychic cognition and power… Nothing. I only feel a moving sensation at the crown of my head sometimes. Same spot. Again and again.. A feeling of it being “engaged” for a few seconds and then left like before. Sometimes multiple times a day. This and a heightened intuition putting wholes rapidly together, not normal ones but rather innovative and perceptive ones, increased energy and lightness, the character growth I mentioned above are my only signs so far. Is it alright? Am I at all growing spiritually? Are these signs reassuring?
Growing? I would say tremendously given the short period of time. What you describe itself takes a long time unless one is marked for the true spiritual life and one is reconnecting the efforts from the past life. It is also a sign that the Divine Mother is with you and She will lead you to Her present incarnation as Mother Mirra, or very simply, The Mother.
May Her Grace and Love carry you forward, ever forward.
Affectionately,
Alok Da
