Now I feel conflicted: was bringing in external help the right course, or does my inner struggle reveal personal attachment and ego?
We must not presume that all that happens in the world is the direct result of the Divine Will. By praying and offering to The Mother we can ensure that the work becomes a means for our inner progress. However, we should not assume that all that comes to us is the result of the Divine Will. Things come from concealed desires, subconscious pulls, karmic transactions and other subtle factors. Similarly, your engagement with the project in response to the prayer doesn’t mean that the project itself is The Mother’s and that She will henceforth decide as to who will work in it and who will share the responsibility. We need to understand that the world at present is not the direct expression of the Divine Will. Yes, the Divine Will is ultimately behind everything and leads us through everything towards an eventual divine destiny. But for now there is a terrible mixture in the world, a clash and conflict of forces, a strife whose far end is hidden from us. Hence our focus should be on the task given to us, the task at hand, and we must do it well as a means of worship of the Divine, dedicating everything, including the results to Her, including success or failure. The rest should not be our concern. That is the larger world play and human consciousness is presently not equipped to handle it.
Affectionately,
Alok Da
